"There's such a lot of different Annes in me. I sometimes think that is why I'm such a troublesome person. If I was just one Anne it would be ever so much more comfortable but then it wouldn't be half so interesting."-Anne in Anne of the Island
I have always loved Anne of Green Gables. She voiced so many of the things I was thinking that I felt an instant connection with her fictitious self. Ever since reading her book forever ago, I have wanted to live in P.E.I. P tells me I'd hate it because it's bound to be cold and wet, but like most things people tell me I'll hate, I'd still like to try.
I feel like there are so many Me's waiting to spring free...and heaven help us if the wrong One bursts out at an awkward time. I would love to be an actress and get lost in someone else's life. I would love be a harley biker chick...leathers, tattoo's, but not gone to fat like so many of them are. I would love to own a big ass truck and cart around horses like super J does, and then ride all over the country side. I would love to live alone, just me and my family, in a log cabin in the middle of nowhere...I think I like this one because if it's just me, then there's no one to disappoint is there? I would love to live on the coast somewhere and share P's dream of living in a lighthouse. I'd love to be a hippie and have dread locks and wear wierd clothes and be into all things natural...well most things natural! Part of me would love to be really into politics and green peacey....but that's a real small part of me. Sometimes I just really want to be a wife, not a mother...especially when one of "them" have caught me having chocolate right before supper and they ask if they can have some. I really long for the times that I can have chocolate when and where I want and don't have to be an example for anyone. Most times I really love being a mom. Most times I like who I am and what my life is...but every now and then I laugh inside and wonder what every one out there sees...and then quietly think "if only you knew.."
4 comments:
I love this post!!! I can totally see you driving a harley and having dreads (btw, you would look great in dreads:))
WM, since I have known you (only a few months now), you have shared with me some of your hopes and dreams. It is healthy and good to look to the future. You are not stuck in a rut, you are always seeking an adventure of some sort. I love that you talk about taking your family on a new experience, out of this country some day. It is important for us, to expand our horizons and get out of our comfort zones. You are a great example of this to me!!! Sometime, we will have to talk about this more over a cup of coffee or wine because there is more to say!!!!
Yes, dreads would be awesome on you! You are so not a disappointment to anyone...You're a great person! And those "if you only knew" moments, I hear ya.
WM, let's move out to PEI or Nova Scotia, they are sooooo beautiful place. Having been there, I too could totally see myself living there. The people there seem to live simpler lifestyles and take life a little easier. If you ever want to go, I'm right beside you!!
As for dreads, you go girl!
Oh WM. As I'm reading your post, I'm thinking, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes. I could see you doing ALL of those things. One for every 5 years of your life. You could just keep reinventing yourself. It'd keep you young and fresh. And imagine the response you'd get from the old cronies you teach with if you came to school in leathers and dreads. I think I'd have to be there.
I feel the same way. There are too many things I'd like to try. Things I'd like to be and do. Not enough time to do all these things, be all these things.
I said to D the other day that I kind of wish that heaven is us reincarnated. Because I really would like to have a few different lifetimes. I'd like to be a few different things. Live a few different lives.
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