Life should not be so serious. Really it shouldn't . It's far far far too short to get mired down in the muck of life's crap. I 'd rather not get all irritated by things that really don't matter in terms of eternity (a wise teacher once told me that...snapshots may recognize the voice). And to be completely honest, right now, I don't actually want to think too deeply about things that DO matter in terms of eternity. (shame on me) All I want to do is be. Really I should want to write about all my spiritual journeys and epiphany's - because, really - who wouldn't benefit from all of my epiphany's? hmmm? So just to do a social service, I should really lay it all out there for everyone to touch and feel and dissect like mennonites at the thrift store checking each cast away for imperfections. I should, but not today.
Today I'm just going to retreat into my safe place and think about vacations and horseback riding in the mountains, and fly fishing on the river, and sitting in the hot tub in the Gulf Islands, and kayaking along the coast of Pender Island, and maybe, just maybe - getting a glimpse of sasquatch ;) 2 and 1/2 weeks to go until we embrace the simpler side of life. I can hardly wait. I hope I make it until then. I may go crazy before then. I feel life spiraling outta control like a slinky flipping down a steep set of stairs. Deep breathing techniques help sometimes. Good thing I took pre-natal courses. In fact, this feeling is much like that transition feeling that I got just before I was ready to push out those lovely little munchkins that make life so very interesting. hot and cold sweats etc. But no. Stop. I'm going to go back to my happy place, with the help of a long island ice tea, and imagine myself in two and a half weeks. In two and a half weeks, none of this will signify. ahhh, almost there.....breathe in breathe out breathe in breathe out...
4 comments:
You'll make it through the next 2 and a half weeks, I know you will! Hang in there my friend.
Yes, I do recognize the voice. I've heard it a few times in my life :)
Keep breathing.
Yes, you will make it. You're almost there. It's hard to stop worrying about everything ... even if we know it's not important and we shouldn't be worrying. Take care of yourself, sweetie. You will make it.
Of course you'll make it, and then in a couple of weeks (after your stellar vacation that is) you'll miss it and wish you were back. Then you just have to get those NASTY thoughts out of your head and go riding!
LOVE YOU!
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